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Although men don't want to admit it, most men like to have a female boss who's much younger and less senior then them. There is something sexy about a young, ambitious female. Every women I've ever met has wanted to pass an older, more senior male and be his boss. If this is the future trend, and both sexes are happy with it, why fight it? If one looks at the poll about what type of boss a man prefers, the poll is overwhelminly in favour of much younger female bosses. Only a small portion of males preferred a male boss. I'm curious as to whether men actually prefer young female bosses, and why. I'm also curious as to what girls think about this "trend". JDRMar 21 2008 1:42pm Guys are letting women pass them by in business and schools. But maybe the rate this has been happening will slow down? I think us guys are just getting even more lazy than before. ManoMar 22 2008 9:42pm This rate shows no sign of slowing down; if anything, it is speeding up. Maybe us guys are getting lazier than before. If so, then guys will have to expect to have young woman bosses all the time. JDRMar 23 2008 11:02am I'm interested to hear from a young female supervisor/manager who is the boss of a much older senior man, and how she made out, or how she enjoyed being his boss. TomMar 23 2008 11:14am #0006 - (Fri.) * 3/28/08 UpdateMar 28 2008 8:14pm Tom, like that going too happen any time soon, the poll said (a poll for girls) and so far not ONE YOUNG GIRL has taken part in this poll, he!! so far not even one old bit-ty has gotten involved. So you see this is all make believe on you old geezer part! AnonymousAug 05 2008 10:56pm This is just crazy! I HATE young female bosses for than anything in the world. I'm 53 and have worked in whole sale since I was out of collage. When I was 39 I ran an entire whole end of a huge company, at that time one of my sons girlfriend who was intertsed in fashion asked for an internship which a gladly arranged for her. She was a beautiful young girl that worked with me and learned the ropes... Now 14 years later at my new job she's my boss. I tell you when I first relapsed it was her my heart sank, this was the girl that got me my coffee and filled my paper work now she's my boss? I had a really hard time the first few weeks, after all she use to sleep with my son, and know my son is hung as I am she must know that also. Now here she is being my the boss of a 53 year old hung fit man. That said she has turned out to be very bright and does her job well. However she's a ball buster and that's something we all feel working for her. She's extremely demanding and strict. My first annual review is in a few weeks and she's going to give it to me. I'm not sure how to handle this. Any suggestions? MikeNov 14 2008 7:22am Mike, you are so lucky! Your boss is an attractive and demanding young (hmm... at least in comparison with you) woman. You say nothing about her following relations with your son, so I guess that they parted years ago. The looming annual review is a good test for you. If you were kind with her 14 years ago, you can hope that she has no intention to fire you. But you should show her that you are an obedient old man, that you are ready to fulfill whatever she orders you. BTW, about 10 years ago I helped a girl who worked at the same work but in a different department. I taught her a bit to program -- it was necessary for the diploma she worked at. Some years later she organized a small firm and asked me to join to her. After thinking for a while I did it. From the very beginning of my working in her firm I used to address her very politely and told her, "Now you are my boss and I am your subordinate. I don't pretend any friendship or special relations with you -- I didn't deserve it." Unfortunately some years later she had to leave the city and this tiny firm disappeared :( Nick NNov 23 2008 11:18am #0010 - (Tue.) * 11/25/08 UpdateNov 25 2008 12:00am you're a bunch of f*ckin morons. A fetishist made this poll, and a freak or two has responded. Women bosses aren't much different than men bosses at a lower level, when they take on higher roles, they suck, becuase chicks can't make snap decisions. whogivesafuckaboutyouDec 16 2010 7:31am IT'S YOUR WORK ,DEDICATION & COMPETENCE WHICH MATTERS NOT YOUR GENDER IN ANY JOB UNLESS YOU ARE A PROSTITUTE OR GIGOLO ! ASHESH GHOSEJan 28 2011 10:23am I prefer older, mature women as bosses. They are more sexy. AnonymousOct 30 2012 10:27am After years of being subject to the leering, touching, and comments of crude men, I love that we have turned the tables on them. Now male subordinates will learn what it is like to please female bosses in all sorts of ways. Even if we don't blackmail them into sex, that unspoken threat is always there making them squirm in their seats! JoanSep 28 2013 6:45am I make my male subordinate give me a "lengthy oral presentation" each morning. I find it very stimulating! HeidiOct 03 2013 11:18pm I had a male subordinate accused of sexual harassment by a woman in my department. We used it to our advantage and arranged for him to give us both 'lengthy oral presentations' about why he should keep his job. He was very 'convincing'! Then he resigned a few days ago. I was sorry to see him go, but we will keep in touch through the woman who originally pressed the complaint. She has 'hired him' for very private services at her home but we have 'an understanding' that I can still avail myself of those 'services' whenever I want to. BethOct 16 2013 11:39pm I am a female engineer since six years or more i have MBA and many executive certificates, Few months ago i got a promotion from my company and now i become a project manager for more than 100 workers and engineer most of them men who are older than me, it is great feeling i really like it i really work so hard to get it and now i did, when we had a meeting and every one want to do his best in front of me to get my satisfaction, but i never blackmail any one of them in any way. Woman Oct 28 2013 5:45pm Hehe ~(^_^)~ AdonisJan 06 2014 11:01am *pops up* alohaaaa AdonisJan 06 2014 10:38pm *Hugs you really super tight* Hi.. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 10:47pm Hayo woman *hugs baxk* AdonisJan 06 2014 10:49pm Boo. What's wrong? :// Did he.. Do.. Are.. Blahhh. What happened? *Plays with your hair* ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 10:51pm He wanted to open my room but I had locked it already, s'alright ._. K. What happened yesterday Zariah? AdonisJan 06 2014 10:56pm What do you mean? Why did he want to open your room? ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 10:57pm Beats me. Don't wanna ask. He freaks me out. Brings back shiit I don't wanna think about. f*ck him. Anyways, what did your mom do yesterday? AdonisJan 06 2014 10:59pm You don't want to talk about it? Are you sure you're okay? I'm sorry he's always around, Baby. :c By le way, me loves you. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:02pm Jason. o.o I'm not telling you about my mom until I know you're okay. >.< ZareBead:3Jan 06 2014 11:07pm *BEAR ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:08pm I don't wanna talk about it now because I don't wanna think about it for now. We can later if you wanna. Go to sleep? And seriously we don't have to talk. Go email your peeps. Lilliana is entertaining me somewhat lol You know whoJan 06 2014 11:08pm K then. I'm not okay. The truth is out, gasp. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:09pm *Kisses your cheek* I would be the worst girlfriend and friend and person ever if I just left you upset. I understand that you don't want to talk about it now. I don't feel like thinking like that either. I want to talk to you. You're really not okay.. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:13pm No yo AnonymousJan 06 2014 11:14pm :// I don't know what to do, but I want to do something. Anything. Everything. >.> I want to help make this better, but I can't. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:15pm *No you wouldn't. I'm not upset, someone cheered me up. Don't worry. I know I'm not okay but no need to point it out xD go to sleep. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:15pm It's fine? Go email people Zariah. I'll be fine. Earlier I was over the too upset and now I'm just ":p bleh" upset. Leave leave dream dream or just go go Zay Zay AdonisJan 06 2014 11:17pm *over the top AdonisJan 06 2014 11:17pm Nooo. u.u I will sleep at like 2:30 or 3:00, I missed you and blahhh. I'm just glad you're talking to me. >.> It's not fine, akksjsjaoaoalaljehaiaos. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:20pm If yo AnonymousJan 06 2014 11:21pm If you don't go focus on them I'm still going to leave. Just go, seriously. I'm not the most funnest person to talk to. Just leave Zariah. It's okay AdnisJan 06 2014 11:23pm I like how you say girl to refer to people, I don't know why. It makes me laugh. "Hey girl." "What's up girl?" "Night girl." I don't know why I imagine the way you say it and then I start laughing. cx I'm sorry. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:23pm Jason. :c Well if you do become a stubborn butt (because I'm a stubborn butt and I'm not leaving yet) goodnight in advance and I really do love you. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:24pm Only three people deserve the title "woman" on this site. And I don't feel comfortable calling these other girls "woman" so I say girl. I was gonna say "What's up woman" cos I thought it was some girl I met yesterday but it wasn't heheh. It's fine. Laughing is good. Don't get in trouble for laughing, woman. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:28pm Just leave and go email. You want to- you don't have to prove anything to me by staying. I know you're a perfect gf to me. I just don't feel comfortable when you talk to me and crap while emailing others. Weird I know. I feel like I'm bothering you, lolz. So just go Zay. Seer-us-lee. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:31pm I AM ONE OF LE WOMEN! :'D ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:34pm See. Took you six minutes to say that. Just go o_O AdnisJan 06 2014 11:35pm You're so serious, but you end up saying like one thing that makes me laugh. cx Stahp. o.o Kidding. I'm not a perfect girlfriend, Jeebuz, no. I need to work on some stuff to be a better girlfriend, but I'm trying. I'm not trying to prove anything. You never ever bother me, Jace. You're like. One of my best friends and that includes people in real life. You're never a bother to me. Talking to you makes my whole day better. ._. Even if I just see that you made a post it makes me happy because then I know you're around and it's a good feeling. You only bring me happiness you poop. >.> ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:37pm WiFi is being slow. Lots of wind outside. Like. Our chair on our deck have fallen over and they're metal and heavy and yeahhh. o.o ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:38pm Took me four minutes to write the big paragraph so. Hah. o.e ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:38pm Heheheh I'm a poop. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:39pm *CHAIRS o.o ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:39pm What the crap. My ears are ringing. Bad face. Stop. Yes, yes you are you lovely little poop nugget. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:40pm Don't feel forced to talk to me. Just tell me goodbye and s'all good. No hard feelings. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:40pm I'm never forced to talk to you, so. Hai. (._.)/ ZareBear:3 loves YOUUU Jan 06 2014 11:42pm Sure sure suresuresuresuresuresuresuresure. Hai how are you. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:45pm I'm okay and how is your tootie-fruity-booty? c: ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:47pm My wifi is being slow so sorry. And I'm okay I guess hehe AdonisJan 06 2014 11:48pm Kskdkakdnallaldlamd How can you be upset, but really adorable at the same time? Never worry, JaceyBear. c: ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:51pm You know how I do the random letters? Well I was texting my friend Michael and he did random letters like that and I texted him back, "Look at the last three letters, hehehe! xDD" because it was like alhjaoalslsjejapapfjfap Last three letters: fap and he just texted back, "You would. :/" It was really funny to me? xD ._. ZareBear:3Jan 06 2014 11:53pm HEHEHEHEHEH you dirty girl. I want a fapping room that says "Don't disturb" when I'm inside. AdonisJan 06 2014 11:57pm HEHEHEHEHE- yes, yes I am. ._. What. .-. That's weirddd, Jasooon. (/.\) ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:03am Yeah I know sorry hehe. So what's up? AdonisJan 07 2014 12:04am I was going to say something, but then it just became a dirty thing so now I'm nawt going to say it until further notice. o.o ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:05am I'm petting my dogs armpit what about you? xD ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:06am *dog's ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:08am Eh just watching Friends and waiting for me friend to leave. Bleh. And do you have school today? AdonisJan 07 2014 12:08am I find it interesting that when you're upset you type more literate and when I'm upset I don't. ._. Well, at first I do without faces, but then I don't care and I just go all twit arse on the written language. .-. ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:10am I don't know if I do. I hope not. Friends!:33 Dan? Eric? The other one? Rob? ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:11am I'm in a good mood now ^_^ a lil disappointed but good =3 and bleh. I write like an idiot when I'm not upset but when I'm upset I write kinda good ._. AdonisJan 07 2014 12:13am Well you can go now? :p no need to talk to me lol xP AdonisJan 07 2014 12:14am You don't write like an idiot! >:o You sure? Why're you disappointed, Boo? :cc ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:16am Sksklalakeajakskwlad I need reassurance again. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:16am Disappointed because someone is leaving D': lol donut worry bout it. Ross and Rachel just confessed to each other that they love each other c': AdonisJan 07 2014 12:21am About wut? Reassurance that I'll be okay if you leave? I'll he okayyyyy. Seriously go email your friends gurlly. Go go go. AdonisJan 07 2014 12:22am Yay! c': But then they're going to go ona BREAK! unless they're past that? o.o Awe, I'm sorry that they're leaving. I worry about you all the time. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:23am I'm not emailing anyone Jace? Why do you insist that I am when I'm not? And no, not on that, but that's good to know too. Blah. I love you and I might not have school, but I have a feeling that I will, buttersss I'll keep my phone charged so text me if you want. It's off right now and she doesn't know how to turn it on, so you can text me in the morning. I don't know. I need to sleep and to think a little bit. Love you tons! ^-^ I needzz sleep. I really want to stay up, but I literally can't and if I do have school- well, I have all the boring classes plus gym which means I need sleep. .___. So sorry. :cc I really do love you JaceyBear. xx ZareBear:3Jan 07 2014 12:27am It fine! :p sorry I'm being boring cx AdonisJan 07 2014 12:27am Wait what do you need reassurance on? Um um I think I know? I don't like Mina. I mean I do. I love her a best friend. She's always here for me even though I ingnore her ._. But that's it. I only love you and I only see you. You are the only one I love like. Like I love love love you. You mean everytbing to Me Zariah. If that is what you needed reassurance on. Then well. I don't wanna say much now. But I don't like her like a gf. I don't. I am your Jason. Only yours. I love you will all my heart and you're always here for me. You mean the world to me? You're my best friend, my first priority, my everytbing. I love you Zurri<3 AdonisJan 07 2014 12:31am You're not boring you poop. Sweet dreams, Love. (: (((: Yeah. Yep. I'm a pervert. o.o *Gasssp:o* Kay, bye. cx -gone- Jan 07 2014 12:32am Sweet dreams ZurryBooty<3 ._. Adonis - I ONLY LOVE YOUUUUUS!!!!!Jan 07 2014 12:33am I didn't think you liked Mina, I just wanted reassurance that you still loved me because I kept saying it, but you wouldn't say it back. (/.\) But thank you. I'm glad I got to read that. It means a lot. A ditto to you. xP I'm going to knock out. SWEET DREAMS ONCE AGAIN, LOVE! ^^ /\/\ -gonegonegone LIKE THE WIIIND! o.o-Jan 07 2014 12:34am She thinks it's a pedo face xD (: (: ): )': (: (: (: bye baby girl😻 AdonisðŸJan 07 2014 12:35am I know I didn't wanna say it bak because I wanted my last "I love you" for tonight be good .-. THOSE VOLCANOES XD I'm smiling =3 <33 go tooooo sleeeeeeep nowsssssss ^-^ adios! *-* Adonis-gone to pooplandia!-Jan 07 2014 12:38am Blaiebaiddjsblahhhh what did you need to think about? >_< AdonisJan 07 2014 12:38am Hai, hai, hai. O.o HEHEHE- SMIIILE!:33 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:38am " HEY- HEY BABY! o.o.... ;P" I'M DYING! xD *Crawls under le table and nuzzles your cheek* I is sowwy. :c Forgive moi? *Kisses your jawline* :3 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:40am You is NAWT an elf! >:o ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:40am Yush I forgive you .-. -pulls you close and bites lip- that must feel really good >_< AdonisJan 19 2014 11:44am I know that's yer job!>:3 mymymymy Wittle elf .___. I LOVE YOU XD LIKE seriously bleh I can't contain myself anymore >_< whenever I say it in caps I feel like yelling it out ._. But I can't:// AdonisJan 19 2014 11:45am Goodie. :3 *Giggles* Well, in real life it would soft slow kisses from your mouth up your jawline and then I can whisper "sweet" sayings in your ear, heh. :3 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:47am Your wittle elfie. c: Hehe, love it! n.n I LOVE YOU TOO! :D I nooose le feel. (>;-;)> ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:48am *would be soft ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:49am I would just make out with you while yer in between me and the floor or the wall, and I will stop kissing you when we need oxygen. Then I would kiss your jaw line up to your ear and suck your ear lobe, then I'll trail kisses down your face to your neck, find a nice suitable spot on yer neck, and I'll start sucking and licking and then biting to leave a nice dark hickie ^.^ AdonisJan 19 2014 11:51am Yeh silly hippo :P <3 WE CAN USE HEARTS HERE o.o AdonisJan 19 2014 11:52am That gave me butterflies and good shivers. Jeebuz. Hush up. *_* I cannot handle this, shh. *Covers your mouth and kisses your forehead* Shushy. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:53am WE CAN? :o <3 Hehehe, I love hippos! xD Especially when they're all angry they're all like, "Roaaar. I look like I'm yawning, muahaha, old fat man laughter, HARHARHAR! I'M A SHAVED GUINEA PIG! :'D" ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:54am Akfmalrokajemglaisjfn I really want a hickey from you. >.< ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 11:55am -licks your hand- sushi MEE? :c </3 HEART.. BROKEN! ;-; AdonisJan 19 2014 11:55am Hippos are fùcking beast, dood o.0 They can fight crocodiles babe. CROCODILES! How awesome is that?!?! o.o I like hippos when they babies ._. They reminds me of black crap o: AdonisJan 19 2014 11:57am And I really wanna give you one. So the first thing I do when I get to Jersey is leave yeh a hickie? Or will yer ma' start saying stuff about it? o.e my hickies are a work of art :>) AdonisJan 19 2014 11:59am *Wipes my hand on your shirt and hugs you tightly* Are we still under the table? xD *Crawls out and sits on the edge of the table* I always sit on tables and desks. Bad habit. >.< SUSHI, YESH! ME SOWWY!:cc *Puts a band aid on your chest and smiles* All better. :3 <33 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:00pm I SAW A VIDEO ON THAT! I love animals, hehe. :3 "Of black crap." I cannot contain my laughter! xDD ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:01pm I will make my friend drive me to the airport and video tape the whole thing so when he's driving us back you can give me a hickey in le car! >:3 I'll bring a scarf or something to cover it up, no worries. cx I'll be eighteen. Screw her rules. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:03pm Blehhhhhh ;-; -crawls out and puts myself in between yer legs and expects a hug- We need to hug all day. Because like. You're mine and I'm definitely yours. And becUse I love you and I want your hugs all for myself ._. <3 HAHA XD WHENEVER I try sitting on a table, "Jason! Come here and sign tbis detentions slip! >:o" and then this other girl (her fav student v.v) sits on a table? "Alice get off the table Hun ._." like WATAFAK!? D:< I complained and I got a week of detention for "talking back to her" PFFFT xP -stares at bandage- Wut type is it? <33 :33 Adonis loves yeh ^.^Jan 19 2014 12:06pm I mean like if I die I wanna be a hippo now ._. Or a cheetah 0.0 cos I do it fast and hard ;D xD AdonisJan 19 2014 12:08pm *Wraps my arms around your neck and my legs around your waist* You shall never get away!:'o I love you. A lot. A lot, a lot, a lot that it hurts sometimes. Like. I physically hurt because of how much I love you. But it's a good hurt, you know? I really do love you. I'm 155,000,003% yours and more. Detention slip?:o Bad boy, Jason! >:o xP WATAFAAAK? D: *Pokes the band aid* Extra strength water proof. ._. I have to make sure you never ever get a broken heart. Ever. Never ever never. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:11pm Noooooo I don't want to give you a hickey in front of yer friend? Wtf? xD Why not while we're eating in McDonalds? .__. Like "*eats a fry, leans down and sucks/bites/licks yer nexk* DONE! Now put that scarf and give me one ;P" xD yeh but like you wot he able to hide MY hickies .__. They last a while, LOLOLOL o.o AdonisJan 19 2014 12:11pm If I died, I would want to be a house kitteh. .-. Named Stewart. ._. xD Ororor like. A bear. Roaaar. :3 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:12pm *now put that scarf on and give me a hickie *wont be able to AdonisJan 19 2014 12:13pm Now how do you know that? ._. Whom're you giving hickies to? ;-; Makeup? He'll be drivinggg. ._. We can go in le trunk, dude. Or like. When he goes into a little store or something. Ororor like. When he goes to le bathroom. .-. OR WHEN WE GET TO MY HOUSE, DAMN. >:o DONUT BE DIFFICULT! D; xP ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:14pm I would give a lot of hickies. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:14pm -wraps my arms around your waist and kisses you- I'm not trying to get away, I'd rather be here 5eva than anywhere else. I know I love you because of how I feel. And then I read poems that say "if you really love someone" and they all apply to me ._. It's like. I wrote it o.0 nonononose is it batman or Elmo or wut type of design?3: I won't ever break your heart. Because you have mine. And like. I don't wanna hurt you or anything, your heart is safe with me. I'm guarding it reallllll careful. Like hell I will break it. I love you Zariah. With all my fùcking heart >_< Adonis wants to be a dinosaur nvmJan 19 2014 12:18pm Um I used to give hickies? But if it helps I never let any girls give me any xD Like no. Fùck off Le neck. IM NOT GONNA GIVE YOU A HICKIE WHILE YER MUM IS AROUND!! xD Maybe we when he goes to the store. I can give him a long list to buy shiit and I'll attack yer neck when he leaves =3 AdonisJan 19 2014 12:21pm I want a lot. From you >.- AdonisJan 19 2014 12:22pm BE A DINO-ROAR!:33 *Kisses back and wraps my legs tighter* Agreed. Like. If I never had to sleep or do anything I would just want to talk to you. You're my favorite thing, Jace. >.< And I just love you. Ittt isss aaa Hello Kitty band aid, heh. c: *Makes a silly faces and giggles* I love with all that I got to give. .-. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:24pm Nooo. Like in the basement. ._. She doesn't go down there. xP Attack my neck like please. I will beg. Aldmlapwldlalsjsoapkefna Did you give them a looot? >.< ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:25pm I would give a lot. ._. Roar. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:26pm -places my hands on your butt and scoothes yeh closer- If we do meet. I already know wut I wanna do with yeh. You've been my favorite thing since.. I think October 29. -wiggles my hippo bandage around- this is a just in case for yeh. I never wanna use it ._. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:31pm You don't even have to beg. Once we're down in the basement and we close/lock the door, I will attack your neck and your lips and blahhhh. Nope. I didn't like giving hickies that much to them because I wasn't dating them, anyways so what was the point? AdonisJan 19 2014 12:33pm *Kisses your cheek and runs my fingers gently up and down your neck* What do you want to do? :o You've been my favorite thing since you became Dumb-Dumb. .-. *Looks at the hippo bandage* .. Then don't. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:34pm Wait won't yer mom be suspicious that a 19 year old left her house and her 18 year old daughter hS a scarf around her nexk? Why can't we just attack each other's necks in the apartment I'm gonna rent?! .__. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:35pm o.o I never got that. Hooking up or giving hickies if you're not dating. Like. There are some people that have asked me to hook up or whatever and I say no because I'm like, "Watafak, we're nawt a couple you shÃt bag. ._." Ahh, I want that nowww. There's a bedroom in my basement I AM JUST SAYING! xD ZareBear:3 Jan 19 2014 12:36pm Becauseee, the train to get to New York is like ten minutes away from MOI! o.o So we can do le attacking at my place then go on the train once you get settled in? xD No. No she will not. .-. Doesn't matter if she was anyway. I'd be a legal adult. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:37pm -rests my head on yer shoulder- .-. I can't tell you wut yet cos it'll ruin the moment xDDidnt I become Dumb-Dumb on October 29;3 I won't. But like if I ever do. I'll have a baseball bat here just in case so you can use it ._. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:38pm I thought it was stupid. Besides they expected me to be in a relationship with them and I was like "Ahahahaaaaaa o.o Um. Naw. Errrrr, yeah no sorry bye bye ^.^ ... IN THE INSIDE: fuuuuuuuuuuućk >_<" ok. I'm just Saying now. If you take me down there. We will fùck each other's brains out down there. So be warned .-. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:41pm You didn't like me on October 29th, you little shÃt! xD I wouldn't hurt you like that. So. Nooo, tell me! ;P I'm laughing! ON A TOTALLY UNRELATED NOTE, SOMETHING MAGNIFICENT HAPPENED IN MY BOOK, LIKE SCREW YOU NICK, YOU TOTALLY DESERVED THIS! ASTLEYYY!<3 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:43pm Ooooooh I like the way yeh think Baby xD people are gonna be staring at our hickies ._. They're gonna be like "They're just having sex. It isn't gonna last." WELL BETCHES!! It would be four years with my wild chick! >:} .. Would you move in with me? Just curious o.o you Wouldn't have to pay rent :P AdonisJan 19 2014 12:44pm Why "fuuuuuuuck?" .. ._. Kakdkalsofkalslmlaofjdnakfmf Alrighty. #._.# *Insta-blushies* You need hush. I'm in no condition to be thinking dirtily right now. :* ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:45pm I can just see it now. Bishes whispering and then I'll be all like, "HAH. HAH, HAH, HAHAHA! o.o NO! TALK TO LE BOOTY, 'CAUSE YOUR RATCHET ASS IS SNOOTY! t(._.t) *Attempts moon-walking away*" Uhm. *Shrugs* Potentially. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:47pm You liked me on Oct. 29th?!?! o.o and no I didn't like you but I liked talking to yeh. The only reason I kept on going to likelike WAS FOR YEH! xD ok. I already thought of what sex positions I would like to do with yeh ^.^ sue me for thinking of that nao xD UM.. JACEYBEAR WANTS YEH TO ELABORATE O____O AdonisJan 19 2014 12:47pm Because I felt like shiit. They expected a relationship and I wasn't looking for one so .-. Then you appeared :')) ruined all my logic, but her definitely worth it^_^ aw sorry. BUT YOU MENTIONED THE BEDROOM!! xD my face when we're down the basement: 😠AdonisJan 19 2014 12:50pm I mean like you don't have to xD I just wanted to knur xP AdonisJan 19 2014 12:51pm Yeshhh. ._. Really?:o I've thought so too, so? o.o IT'S IN MY BOOK! I'm on the fourth book. ._. I can't elaborate the entire series? D: But Astley didn't come in until laterrr. .-. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:52pm Eehehe. I like ruining things. c: But I love YOUUU. :3 I NOOOSE, BUT STIIILL. ._. aSokdmdmaknrkakdiaJfdajksf I love you. .-. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:54pm It's too early to think about that. ._. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:54pm Wattpad book? AdonisJan 19 2014 12:56pm I love yeh too :P AdoniJan 19 2014 12:57pm I was just curious? It's not like I was saying "You have to move in with me for sure" I'm not even sure if I'm actually moving or not. I might just Visit. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:58pm Nooo. A real book. The Need series. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:59pm I love you more. o.o ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:59pm And we're already thinking of giving hickies/planning a trip/positions for sex and yeh think it's too early if I asked if you would move in? Like a no would've been clear. No hurt feelings. AdonisJan 19 2014 12:59pm Yesh, I nose. (: I just can't think about that right now. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 12:59pm I'll look it up later. I promised my friend I would read Pretty Little Liars with her :p AdonisJan 19 2014 1:00pm Erm. Did I hurt your feelings? Jace. The only reason I can't say yes or no is because I have a promise to take care of my mom and to live with her. Alright? By eighteen I may want to keep to that promise, I may not. I don't know. A hickey is one thing, I could get a hickey now. I can't move out now. Understand? It has nothing to do with you. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:01pm It's four books. Need, Captivate, Entice, and Endure. Eehehehe. *_* ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:02pm No you didn't hurt my feelings? I just wanted a "yes" or "no" like bleh. Yeah I understand Zarsy. I would prefer yeh live with her anyways. AdonisJan 19 2014 1:04pm I know xP she's really excited that I'm reading with her xD AdonisJan 19 2014 1:05pm :| *Stands up and hugs you* Your Jason-Sides of changed. I'm sorry. :c ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:05pm Know what? ._. I was talking about the Need series. I never read PLL. o.o ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:06pm *have not of ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:06pm I'm ok Penguin .-. -hugs backs seriously sorry for errrr.. Changing? o.0 AdonisJan 19 2014 1:08pm I know there's four books for the The Need Series. I looked it up last time. And my friend is excited that I'm reading with her AdonisJan 19 2014 1:08pm You sure? *Looks up at you and kisses under your chin still holding the hug* Nose, don't be sorry for being you. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:11pm Ohh, okay! n.n Reading is so nice. It's like entering a new world and being someone else. You can live a thousand new lives just by reading and gain an attachment to the characters. It's crazy. And I love it. c: ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:12pm Yeah I have to go, so bai ttyl :Pa AdonisJan 19 2014 1:12pm You know what else is a really good book? Boy Proof. Hehe. Egg is such a dork. cx ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:14pm Ta-Ta. ;-; <3 ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 1:15pm Blah. I miss you. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 2:15pm You probably won't check this later, hopefully not until a long time later and just like. Not even care about this. Whatever. I feel stupid for getting jealous over stupid meaningless things that I shouldn't get jealous over. I'm so repetitive and I want to apologize, but I know that does nothing. I'm so afraid of losing you and I know you say I won't. I know, I know, I know. But I'm always on edge. I don't think you get how much you mean to me, alright? I'd be so freaking lost without you and I'm kind of ticked, but not really. I love you. And I know you say you love me, but even if we're on good terms I get jealous. I get scared. I get nervous. I know, I know I have nothing to feel that way over, but I do. For small nit-pick reasons. Sometimes I don't feel like you love me and it has nothing to do with you or what you say or how you act, it's just I don't feel good enough. I don't feel worthy. I don't feel like I should/can be loved. I know. Silly. I know you might potentially feel the same, but like. I always feel alone. No matter how good we are. No matter how happy I am. I have this empty feeling inside. I don't want you to feel responsible because this isn't your fault. I have built a void in myself and I feel so lost all the time. I get so jealous. I'm sorry. I don't know if I'm apologizing to you or to myself. I love you. Alright? Like. Don't doubt that even though I know we both do/will. But I do love you. Don't mind my complaining. I felt better getting it out. I'm okay and I hope you are too. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 5:19pm I'm going to keep up a front from now on until you read this and realize I'm being stupid and how much of a broken hollow shell I am and how much my whole being cares about you. I know you know. Or maybe you don't. I don't know. But I'm "not" going to be sad anymore. Not until you read this and possibly get upset with me. I love you. ZareBear:3Jan 19 2014 5:25pm You crazy woman, I love you ._. <333 AdonisJan 23 2014 12:59pm Today you pissed me the hell off. Even Mina said it seemed like you were encouraging her to cut by telling her what was good and what was bad; you even gave her a damn list. Like no. I'll calm down,ok? But if it were the other way around, Mina tellig you what's good and bad and giving you a list, I would be extra pissed. I just. Why Zariah? WHY. Like no. I can't believe you did this. Like no. Ugh. AdonisJan 25 2014 7:05pm I love you, ok? I'm just really mad at you right now. AdonisJan 25 2014 7:05pm Ignore that .__. ^ I'm really worried about yeh :/ AdonisFeb 02 2014 10:17am Our hickie talk lolololol xDD AdonisFeb 02 2014 10:29am I miss youuuu, I hope yer doing ok and and and that she left yeh alone>_< AdonisFeb 02 2014 12:52pm I love you ._. AdonisFeb 02 2014 1:28pm Blehhhhh it's f*ckin hell not knowing what's happening!!! Zariah, pls be ok. Plsplsplsplspls AdonisFeb 02 2014 2:26pm Turns out I worried over nothing ~_~ AdonisFeb 02 2014 3:09pm I m happy ^_^ <33 AdonisFeb 02 2014 6:55pm Yeh made me happy somehow again today xDD :3 love yewwwwwwww <33 AdonisFeb 03 2014 3:27pm I am yers and yer mine. AGWEIN. Yes:3 adonisFeb 05 2014 4:15pm I'm yours again >_< xD <333 AdonisFeb 08 2014 2:19pm Anyways I'm going to go hang out with Alyssa. I miss you :3 AdonisFeb 08 2014 2:20pm I love you. AdonisFeb 28 2014 2:13pm No you don't. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 5:56pm And like. I'm sorry I suck. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 5:56pm I hope you don't check this until later. A long time. Yesterday I sent an online friend, "I feel suicidal. And I want to cut. And cry. And I want to rip my hair out. And claw/scratch my eyes out. And scratch and scrape my skin off until I'm nothing. I want to jump off a building and hear my bones crack right as I fall. I want to slit my throat and have blood pour. I want. To die. I want to rip my insides out. I want to scream and pinch and smoke and drown myself in alcohol. Vodka to burn. I want to rip my ears off so I don't have to hear anymore bullpoo. I want to snap. I can't do anything. Ahh." So yeah. You just texted me so yeah, I'll stop talking. ZareBear:3 Feb 28 2014 5:59pm Well last night, same difference. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:00pm "Jason..." I don't know why I said it. Maybe because I missed you. Maybe because I just say your name. Just to say it. To know you're real and still alive. That I'm still alive. That we're alive together and you're mine. I could say, "You'd never catch me dead whispering your name under my breath." I'd be lying though. I need that reassurance. A self reassurance. For what I do not know. I feel lost. And I don't think you can find me. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:02pm Like I love you. But I don't feel the mutualism. I don't feel it. I feel like a chore. It's not your fault though. You give me attention beyond the fact of which I deserve. More than I coukd desire. I just. I don't feel worth it for you. Yeah, I'm a poo ass girlfriend and I don't know what I need or what you want or what you need me to do to make things okay and even though I'm dumbfounded to the point of ignorance to you and your well being, I'm trying. And like. It really, really hurt when you said I wasn't. I try so hard for you. I do and it f*cking sucks that you can't see that. That all I try to do is make things okay and work and I try time and time again. And if we lose it one more time - fifth time - I can't try anymore. "I'm alive, but I've lost my drive" okay? I'm just breathing. Not living. I'm not okay. And I'm sorry that I can't do what you expect of me or be enough for you all of the time, I'm sorry. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:08pm I don't even know what to do anymore. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:10pm I feel like my heart isn't even beating. Breathing is just a struggle. It doesn't even feel like you're mine anymore. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:11pm f*ck. I'm f*cking crying for f*cking poo. I hate yelling at you I hate it. But I f*cking do it anyway because I just want you to f*cking understand, okay? You don't even f*cking get how much it hurts to f*cking yell at you, but I do it anyway because I want you to understand you're my main f*cking priority and I'm f*cking sick of you f*cking belittling yourself and I have to act like a pooty f*cking bitch to get my f*cking point across. Like it hurts me so badly to f*cking yell at you for stupid f*cking poo. It hurts that you don't see yourself as one of my main f*cking priorities. And it hurts when you "leave me alone." But like. I don't even know how to talk to you because I'm always so scared that one of us is going to get hurt andandand you deserve someone so much better, okay? ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:21pm I did it again. "Binkie." Just to know you're mine. I don't feel like you are. But you are. But you feel so hollow. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:22pm I feel like you're a hollow statue in an old pyramid. Light slightly shines through and I'm your shadow. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:23pm My heart feels physically broken and my chest is heavy. My stomach's churning and I don't know how to get you to love me like you used to. God, I wish you were here. It would be easier to just make things okay. To wrap ourselves together and to just look at you. We'd be okay. I hope. I want you here. I miss you. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:25pm What I say: "Jace, talk to me." What I really mean: "I'm scared you're gone for f*cking ever and I know that's dramatic, but I just want us to be okay and I want to know that you're okay and that we'll be okay and nothing can ever take you away from me. Like f*ck, just be okay. I love you and I'm sorry that everything about me sucks major balls and I just want you to tell me we'll be okay, okay?" ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:28pm I love you so f*cking much, please don't go. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:35pm I say "I miss you" in conversations out of no where because I feel alone. All of the time. And I just need to know that you're still mine and that you still love me. At least the slightest bit, I need to know that you do. I miss you. ZareBear:3Feb 28 2014 6:38pm Happy three month anniversary, I love you. And I know you love me too. :3 <33 ZareBear:3Mar 01 2014 7:17am I feel stupid. ZareBear:3Mar 02 2014 8:57pm Spike. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:16pm Spikespikespike. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:34pm Would you still love me if I was dead? ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:35pm I think I've been suicidal in every room in my house. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:37pm Will you take my heart? I'm done with it and I want you to have it. Like. Stop breathing. I must. Hello wind. Hello grass. Hello sun. Hello Hell. Hello wall. Hello fist. Hello eyes. Hello me. Hello you. Hello death. Hello butterfly. Hello bird. Hello goodbye hello. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:39pm Lol, that was lame.. Hello nature, goodbye. Hehe, f*ck. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 9:42pm I was reading what I wrote on Friday and like. I remembered what happened and now I feel like a bitch and like. I'm trying in every aspect of my life, okay? I'm trying really hard and it f*cking sucks that you never see that. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 10:17pm I'm all butthurt about this. I'm sorry. But I am. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 10:19pm I shouldn't have brought it up. f*ck. ZareBear:3Mar 03 2014 10:22pm I love youuu. .-. Okie? n.n <3 ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 8:25am Holy f*ck o_O AdonisMar 08 2014 4:17pm Jee f*cks i dont even know what to say. AdonisMar 08 2014 4:19pm I hate the spikes you have. You dont suck at all AdonisMar 08 2014 4:20pm Sorry for acting like a demented arsehole lately. I just dont know what to say to you. When we're talking i feel weird. Like i dont know. I was thinking in my sciecne class and bleh. Shiit got into my head ahah. I just feel. Idk. Whenever you say you love me i want to say it back but i feel like im mad at you. I dont know for what. AdonisMar 08 2014 4:23pm Idk how to explain. I do love you but i dont feel like saying it back right now tbh. Yeah yeah im f*cking f*cked up but eh. Just. You. Idk. You you you. Sorry for not trying to talk. Like i said. I feel weird. I get these thoughts while talking to you and i get all upset. So ya. AdonisMar 08 2014 4:26pm Have fun or whatever. Dont let me ruin ur mood. And dont try to be there for me anymore. Its alright. Im sad. Dunno why. Kinda feel like smoking or sometbing.idk what i jusy idk i wany ti give.up on shiit but i cant u know? I feel so ficking sad and blah ajd idk what im dorry for heijg a bad bf you deserve.better belivleve me ok bue adpnisMar 08 2014 4:29pm I feel lije i.voukdvr reokied better snd.im.sorry for.not AdonisMar 08 2014 5:01pm I love you okay? ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 6:46pm I wish we both knew why you were mad at me... ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 7:11pm And don't give up. Like Hell would I let that happen. Give up on anything. Like. I won't give up for you, okay? I don't deserve better? You're MORE than I could want. I just feel like poo all the time. And I don't know how to make you happy and it sucks and I don't know what to say or to do or anything to accomplish that. That being your happiness. Like. I don't know how to make you smile or laugh or say, "Awwwe" or to blush or to feel butterflies. I don't know how to do that poo, yet you're able to do that to me all the time and I feel like poo not being able to do something so wonderful like that to you? All I want to do is make you happy okay? Ignore me. Talk to Mina. Stay. Yeahhh. Whoaaa. Cantaloupeee. I need a vodka. ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 7:15pm I'm lonely and I miss you and I'm tired, but like. I feel like poo and I don't want to fall asleep until I talk to you. ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 8:04pm Oh, hello. You just texted me.. I didn't think you were going to talk to me, heh. ZareBear:3Mar 08 2014 8:05pm Idk what I'm thinking zb:3Mar 08 2014 8:10pm Hfohxogxogxogxhhxohchocgoatattsgohcjjvpjchpdogsitaitsggcphchpysotaotspyfhpvpjfpjfphcpj Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. ZB:3Mar 11 2014 5:17pm Machine lost zb:3Mar 15 2014 7:44am Sorry for not being the Jace yeh started to like at the beginning AdonisMar 22 2014 12:41am You aren't the Jace that I liked at the beginning, but that's because you're the Jace that I LOVE now. Just shush Jace. I didn't know you were upset? Baby I love you. Tons. Why would you ever think I did not like you? You're my everything Jace. Life without you would be horrific and heartbreaking and pointless. Lifeless. Loveless. Sadness. Helpless. Pointless. I love you. ZareBear:3Mar 22 2014 7:56pm "Started to. . ." Yeah. Started. But I am in love with you NOW. Jason. :| I love you. Ugh. ZareBear:3Mar 22 2014 7:57pm I will always - ALWAYS - be there to catch you when you fall whenever you feel like letting go, Love. You're never alone. Even if you want to be you know I'll be bugging you. cx I love you. So, so much. Forever. I can't say it enough - I love you. ZareBear:3Mar 22 2014 8:00pm :P AdonisMar 26 2014 5:46pm I feel broken & dead inside. Thanks. ZareBear:3Mar 27 2014 9:14pm Well I'm sorry AdonisMar 29 2014 12:55pm Don't be. ZareBear:3Mar 29 2014 12:56pm Phone died. ZareBear:3Mar 29 2014 12:57pm How did I know you would be on here, I do not know. I got a feeling I guess. ZareBear:3Mar 29 2014 12:58pm Eh? AdonisMar 29 2014 1:04pm Text me. ZareBear:3Mar 29 2014 1:07pm Alright AdonisMar 29 2014 1:08pm I miss you... I love you, Jace... -ZareBear:3Mar 29 2014 4:11pm Im here :P AdonisMar 30 2014 8:48pm Lalala. ZMar 30 2014 8:49pm Can't talk to u at school zMar 30 2014 8:49pm That's true :/ AdonisMar 30 2014 8:50pm Mind explaing to me whyyyy zMar 30 2014 8:50pm Can't you email? AnonymousMar 30 2014 8:51pm Obviously dehhrrr Anonut was meh xD AdonisMar 30 2014 8:51pm Can't you email during skewllll?* AdonisMar 30 2014 8:52pm I dont get WiFi at school zMar 30 2014 8:52pm Thisndoesnt explain why u have been acting so sketchy lately z ..... Mar 30 2014 8:53pm That's ehhh weirddddd o.0 AdonisMar 30 2014 8:53pm Oh and i would prefer it if you emailed Jacetoots account xP AdonisMar 30 2014 8:54pm Not really I used to but idk my shÃtty phone doesn't get it ay the school anymore zMar 30 2014 8:54pm I guess we have to talk until you come out :l AdonisMar 30 2014 8:55pm K. I'll email u insteaddd z -gone-Mar 30 2014 8:55pm K AdonisMar 30 2014 8:56pm My heart says that I want you still, but my mind says move on. ZB:3Apr 02 2014 4:28pm You should if you want? :/ AdonisApr 02 2014 9:53pm I'm sorry. But this is necessary. I love you so much. Adonis -gone-Apr 05 2014 2:06pm Happy Birthday! 😊 ZB:3Apr 07 2014 9:08pm You - ehm - aren't coming back, are you? ZB:3Apr 07 2014 9:08pm I answered my own question ^ lol. "Crawl, Baby, crawl, Baby you don't want me." xP It's foyneee. ZB:3 Apr 08 2014 12:09pm I was fücking right, ahaaa. ZB:3Apr 09 2014 12:43pm I wonder if you'll ever come on here. I hope not. I can't fücking stand you right now. In a way I'm glad you're not coming back I guess. I guess. I don't fücking know, but I will move on. I'll be trying to. Fück everything. I'll find someone else and you will too. Love hurts. All the time. It's not love unless it hurts, but it hurts every second and I don't want it anymore. Love never really lasts on the receiving end I suppose. You're such a liar for saying you do, but no matter. Deny all you want, I will remain to think what I think. I will find someone else to go to Sweden with - maybe go by myself. I will find someone else to go to prom with, Hell I have three years. I don't need to meet Kiki. I don't. She'd be better off. I'll probably adopt all my kids and raise them how I want. Without the likes of someone else. No power. Power went off. I think he's inside again aha. My dogs are scared. I'll fight for myself and I'll fight alone. I shouldn't have been dependant on you anyway. Goodbye. ZB:3Apr 09 2014 4:09pm Your messing with my fücking head, stop. You're acting like an ässhöle and I can't take this bullshÃt, okay? ZB:3Apr 09 2014 7:09pm *You're ZB:3Apr 09 2014 7:09pm I adore you. AdonisApr 09 2014 10:45pm You can't stand me? AdonisApr 09 2014 10:46pm Move on. MOVE ON. go fùcking ahead. Go on. Move on don't tell me. Don't you fùcking tell me you've moved on. Please don't tùcking tell me. I will die haha. Not literally but yeah. Move onnnnn ahahaaaaaaaaaaa don't take me back. Even if I want you to. Even if I beg you to like I planned to today. Don't take me back. Just don't okay?? You need to move on and be happy haha. Someone from irl you kno? Someone that can actually hug you and kiss you and hold your hand and actually see you smile when they do something that makes you happy. You deserve someone good. Nice. Smart. There for you. REAL. Not ME. I'm not good? Never was never have been nver will be haha. I'm an ass hole. I'm an idiot and I doubt I will ever graduate. I give up. You were my reason to graduate you know?? I wanted to make you proud when I got my diploma haha. I'm not tere. I'm not there near you. To go to you whenever you feel like crying so I can hug you. I'm not real. Loge does hurt. It's been hurting. So much. I hate it. I honestly do. I hate love and I want to stop feeling. Am if I ever find a way to stop it, I will tell you. I promise. I want to stop feeling all together. I want to forget about you I want to stop thinking about you but I DONT WANT TO. I can't. I CANT. Okay??? I can try and try but I can't. And it sucks because I want you so badly right now. I want to hug you and tell you sorry a million times and hve you snuggle up to me and tell me what bothers you. I want so much from you and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for taking you for grated. I love you. I adore you. I care so much about you. But you dot see it anymore. And I'm sorry you don't AdonisApr 09 2014 10:54pm Sweden was our thing. And you're going by yourself? With someone else? I'll go by myself then. Thanks for introducing me to Sweden. I'm excited. I won't disappoint myself for this. I will go to Sweden. With or without you lol. Ah okay. Prom with someone else. I hope he appreciates you, treats you well, I hope he's the one? I hope so. I really do. I hope he makes you happy. I hope you love him. I hope he loves you just as much as I love you. I doubt he will adore you as much as I do. Doubt. Kiki is like my baby girl. I know she's yours. But I have a connection to her. I will send her a letter one day, Anonymously. Send her money for college or just herself. You might not want to, but I still do. She's my baby girl. You're my Lindsey. Whether you want to or not. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:07pm You're right. You shouldn't hve been dependent on me. I shouldn't have been dependent on you either. Stay safe. You can protect yourself. I know so. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:08pm You were messing with my emotions. You should've stopped treating me like a damn stranger and maybe I would've stopped being an *sshole. And stop treating me like shiit. I know I'm wrong a lot. You don't need to rub it in my face. I already have oter people to do that. Not you too. Please? AdonisApr 09 2014 11:09pm Before I saw this. I commented on one of our old posts. One of my favorites haha. I said "I adore you ://" "I want you back. So fùcking badly. Take meeee back? Help me see you will give another chance??? I need you. I love you. I miss you. Please be mines again?? I hate this. I hate hurting you I hate breaking up with you. Ah you made me cry, but you didn't do it on purpose lol. You made me feel like shiit but it's fine xD I'll always love you, even if yeh say I won't. I'll prove you wrong kkkkk? You will move on. I hope you do even tho it'll hurt to see my baby girl move on. I love you and I'm yours. 5eva&Hallways." AdonisApr 09 2014 11:10pm You gave up on us. I'll try to give up on us too. I want to send you a message. I want to say "take me back?" And beg. And beggggg. Beg beg beg for you to take me back. But I'm scared. I will hurt you again. And you already made up your mind too move on. I hope you do. I really want you to. Be happy baby doll. I hope you meet someone in your party? Someone worth it. Not like me lol. I miss you so much I'm crying haha xD I'm paranoid. My mom brought over a guy. I heard her crying earlier and the guy was talkin loud. She was yelling. I want to close my eyes and just go away. You know? Not deal with feelings memories thoughts, the usual. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:13pm "Take me back?" "Ha, no." That's how I imagine your response. Or just a simple "Nope." It stings just thinking about it? But don't worry. I won't ask. I respect your decision baby girl. I know you don't like me callig you that. But you're my baby. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:15pm I love yeh Moosika. So fùcking much. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:15pm Autocorrect changed "Linda" to "Lindsey" damn. You're my Linda. My gorgeous. Autocorrect doesn't like te word Linda haha xD. It likes Lindsey o_o never heard of it before. AdonisApr 09 2014 11:18pm I don't know a Lindsey ._. I'll go now? Goodbye Zariahpoobearliciousness >_< <3333 AdonisApr 09 2014 11:21pm I miss you and I feel so dead inside right now. I'm smelling my pine needle/evergreen candle and closing my eyes. Pretending your here even though I'm doubtful that's how you smell, it's just. One of my favorite scents and. I miss you and I feel like crying and I need you. I need you. Please respond? Please? Pleasepleaseplease? ZB:3Apr 10 2014 8:15pm *you're Ugh. ZB:3Apr 10 2014 8:16pm I guess this bye bye forever. I love you. Always will. I hope you move on and be happy. I really do. Im crying loooolol youre gone forever. Youre burning the neckalce. Ahah ill miss you okay? Adonis -fone-Apr 11 2014 6:00pm Come back to me please?? AdonisApr 11 2014 6:38pm I think I just said bye. but i know i'm going to spam you again later bc i fùcking miss yeh AdonisApr 11 2014 8:02pm Being with her doesn't feel rigt. I feel guilty cuz I feel like I'm cheating on you?? I miss you. But you're trying to move on haha AdonisApr 11 2014 8:47pm You hate me lol AdonisApr 12 2014 8:47am You did give up. AdonisApr 12 2014 12:14pm Yer talkkjng to mehhhh <333 AdonisApr 12 2014 2:45pm "And i dont fücking want to" get back together?? Dont want to give me a chance?? haha AdonisApr 12 2014 4:01pm I miss yeh AdonisApr 12 2014 5:12pm "Being with her doesn't feel rigt. I feel guilty cuz I feel like I'm cheating on you?? I miss you. But you're trying to move on haha" Oh, for I wish you still felt that way. I fear she told you not to talk to me, but atlas, you've torn me to shreds and loving you is too much work I suppose. You've made it official with her. I want you out of my life, yet I want her out of yours. I believe I am done here. I always wanted you to be happy and I can see that she makes you happy. I see it when you to talk to her or about her. She makes you happy. It's fine, you can't control your happiness. Nor can I. I guess it just sucks when even my best isn't good enough, but that is life I suppose. I guess I've officially fallen back into a depressional state or at a breaking point of doing so. Always so mad and sad. I'm going for counseling soon for my nightmares. Apparently I get night terrors too. You'll learn to not miss me, oh, you'll learn to forget. Remember that poem I wrote for you? It was a couple of days go? Somewhere at the beginning of last week? Yes, I found it in my backpack. "I want you back. / If I do not get you again, / I will have a heart attack. / My heart won't mend. / I love you. / Don't leave. / I do not want you to. / You make my life fun and devious. / I miss you. / I'm sorry. / Don't want to be one, but two. / Snuggle up and tell me a bedtime story. / I am your baby — / At least I want to be. / I will save you and you save me. / Without you, I am not me. / Be my home. / I feel so hopeful. / Don't leave me alone. / My love, if you leave, please stay sheerly beautiful." Ahh, I'm just done though. I have truly given up and maybe one day you'll think maybe I was worth it, but no matter. "I wish my life was this song 'cause songs they never die. I could write for years and years and never have to cry I'd show you how I feel with out saying a word I could wrap up both our hearts I know it sounds absurd and I saw the tears on your face. [You]I shot [me] down and I slammed the door, but couldn't make a sound - so please stay sweet my dear, don't hate me now. I can't tell how this last song ends... The way that I feel tonight so down, so down. I pray I can swim just so I won't drown and the waves that crash over me; I am gasping for air. Take my hand so I can breathe as I write this last song down. . . The broken glass... your moistened skin was everything, was everything / And your broken voice... was quivering . . . / Scream at me make it the best I ever heard. Laugh out loud I know it sounds absurd / Scream at me make it the best I ever heard. You're everything, you're everything / (Does she love you? That's worth knowing) / Heart beats slowing pains are growing. . ." (SS). There are a couple of songs I would love to spill, but I suggest my last recommendation be Like A Knife by Secondhand Serenade. When we met I had planned to play Stranger by SS in the background, Madness by Muse, some other song I can't remember, and I Wouldn't Mind by He Is We. Do with that what you will. I might post a last YouTube video later, but eh, it was really nice knowing you. I guess you don't really know what love means, aha? Well I do. Anyway, hope you're happy with her. I hope you're willing to trust her like you did me and vice versa. I hope you're able to have fun during "sexy time" lol (eehee cringe), and I hope she's everything you want and that I couldn't be. I really do. I hope she can make you smile and I hope you're able to video chat with her and do all these fun things. I hope you guys meet and travel and do all the things I wish I could have done with you. It just hurts too mch to try anymore? I guess I am beyond wounded, but you'll patch up quick. That's how you move on isn't it? I'm real happy for you, bud. I guess I am anyway. Always end with goodbye, right? I love you, heh. For real. I did. I do. And I'm pretty sure I always will. You know what they say - "You never truely get over your first true love." With my luck, 'tis bound to be true. I'm not strong anymore. Never thought I was come to think of it? It was bound to happen eventually. (: Goodbye. Lindsey TayTay Penguin Apr 14 2014 2:59pm Dont know what to say. Kinda went numb right now. Glad you had a great day though! Sorry for spamming and stuff. Ill stop now. Ill stop contacting you and everything, i promise. Have a nice life and i'm real sorry for hurting you a lot. I hope you know i never meant to. I didnt exactly chose Mina. I dont know how to explain why i didnt go with you. But today is a good example i'm really glad. Idk i can't seem to be happy right now and sorry bout that. I'll get used to not having you. Here. Soon. I promise. I hope Bi mike doesnt kiss you again. I begggg that he doesnt. Idk what to say i dont want to read the poll again i guess its too much to bare? Idk anymore Jason Eddy MarsApr 17 2014 11:20pm I miss you, but I was thinking. And yes, I know I'm selfish, but we all do selfish things? You cut yourself which was selfish because it was only to help yourself - that's one selfish thing you did. And I do believe I am one of the most selfish and I'm not blaming you for what you did. Do I always think of myself? No. You know that too that helping people is a number one priority. Last night I actually slept in my mom's bed because I was on a bad mental breakdown and in risk of doing something that would most likely end in failure. Selfish, selfish, selfish. Indeed. But this morning, as I was sitting at the top of the stairs, I just had a glimpse of what I wanted. Darkness. A selfish thing, I guess, but isn't selfish to keep someone away from something he or she want - at least he or she thinks he or she wants. Last night I actually found a picture that said suicide isn't selfish despite people thinking so. Yet, you claimed you would die too, but wouldn't that be selfish? You always were aware of my little plans except for last night's and I'm somewhat happy about that. I'm glad you'll be able to live your life carefree again and start over with someone new. But just because you're moving on doesn't mean I have to. In clarification, I wasn't making you choose whether I died or you dumping her. That wasn't what I was doing. I wanted you to choose to either dump her or make things easier for me. Because by saying you still loved me and not giving me a reason as to why you chose her I was stuck in a rut of heartbreak. I still am, but it's a different kind now it seems. Selfish, selfish, selfish. I'm glad you're able to see me for what I am. Take out my flaws and lay them on a table. Selfish. Maybe it's easier for you to move on - although, for the most part you already have - to be able to recognize what disgrace I am. But again, the tip of it all wasn't that I was making you choose my death limit - oh, no. I would never put that kind of pressure on a person. That's beyond selfish. I was making things easier for the both of us to be honest. If you said that, it would make it easier for both of us to move on as if our lives were run under both a - ehm - a lie? Not sure if it really was, but what am I sure of anymore? My thoughts of suicide spike up and down repeatedly and I doubt you believe that I actually want to do it, yet I don't at the same time. It's an unsure thing that I can't exactly grasp. It wouldn't be because of just you. The thoughts are rising and rising just because of life in general and I know I haven't had the worst life - not at all. But I'm in a different mindset than those who are stronger. Selfishselfishselfish I am for having a mind I cannot control. I'm sorry that I have brought you to such a degree of arrogance that you were brought to believe thar, but nonetheless, I AM GLAD YOU ARE HAPPY. I wasn't screaming at you for not doing what I wanted. I screamed because you didn't understand what I did NOT want. It's not the matter of what I get - it's the understanding and the outcome is a bit of contribution. As you've hopefully finally realized from my little plan last night, I cause too much stress and pain. I cause too much trouble and I only think of myself. That I'M the one that is no good for YOU. Don't you see? This was just another "good machine" another "all is well" except this time it worked. I pushed too much and now the "stupid puppy" is a dog going to his Asian owner, aha. Finally, you were able to see what I've been trying to give to you. I wanted you to be happy and to be completely done because by you saying that you still loved me and by staying nice and sweet and caring and loving you weren't going to be able to be happy. I was trying to "set you free" I guess, heh. Look, it doesn't make me happy, but I'm happy for you, you see? Your happiness, regardless if your presence brings me to love, happiness, joy, romance, climax (aha), Sweden, etc., is all that I need. Your happiness is what I need. Yeah, I guess that my actions were selfish too, trying to make you happy so I could fulfill my needs, but then again, I made sure of it that I couldn't go to you if I needed you which is sososo often. So it's a lose-"win" situation I suppose. Selfish. Yeah. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'm happy you're finally happy. And that you have something that won't risk that happiness like I have. You said I was your angel, but I'm not. I'm Heaven's Devil, Love. Like the Devil I just wanted a friend. I didn't care about faults or mistakes. I didn't care about you defying anybody. I just wanted you. But the Devil is seen as no good. A - erm - mistake? No? Ehm. I can't think of the word, but the Devil is bad. I'm bad. You've escaped my badness and it'll be good for you. Either way, I'm burning. How selfish of me. I'm sorry. Lindsey TayTay PenguinApr 19 2014 7:59am " I won't ever break your heart. Because you have mine. And like. I don't wanna hurt you or anything, your heart is safe with me. I'm guarding it reallllll careful. Like hell I will break it. I love you Zariah. With all my fùcking heart >_<" I love you too, JaceyBear. But you're just a figure of my imagination now... LTPApr 19 2014 8:08am "You sure? *Looks up at you and kisses under your chin still holding the hug* Nose, don't be sorry for being you." I agree with myself there, Jace. You kept apologizing for not "doing what I want," but you didn't want to do them. And that's just apart of your thought process and how you wanted to handle the situation. It was just you, Jace. Never apologize for being you. Because I love you? You. Not... A perfect prince. You. My - I uh. Mina's Aladdin, ehehe. LTPApr 19 2014 8:11am "I think I just said bye. but i know i'm going to spam you again later bc i fùcking miss yeh" Same. But I don't want you to think I'm "making you think I've come back." When did I seriously leave? Our thoughts are so different and so, I want to learn about yours, but. I can't. And I'm trying to be okay with that, aha. Selfish Zay. LTPApr 19 2014 8:13am I guess it's also selfish to post on here. I feel bad about posting on here now. But that's apart of being selfish, right? Feeling bad and knowing you done wrong, but continuing to do it anyway just because it's slowly giving you some type of closure... LTPApr 19 2014 8:15am "You gave up on us. I'll try to give up on us too. I want to send you a message. I want to say "take me back?" And beg. And beggggg. Beg beg beg for you to take me back. But I'm scared. I will hurt you again. And you already made up your mind too move on. I hope you do. I really want you to. Be happy baby doll. I hope you meet someone in your party? Someone worth it. Not like me lol. I miss you so much I'm crying haha xD I'm paranoid." Samesamesame. Move on. Be happy with someone not me and someone worth it and someone who makes you happy. I cry a lot, aha, so it's not worth telling you when I do or not I guess. I'm paranoid that you'll really move on - I bet you already have - and that this is real. I've honestly thought this was a dream for a very long time because I have failed to actually accept it. I know that sounds silly and made up, but it's actually true. I feel like I'm in a dream and this is all fake and when I wake up you'll be my JaceyBear and everything will be okay, but the logical part of me - who is very small - knows that it's real and knows you're probably laughing at me for being so stupid. Everything reminds me of you. I have to stop. I have to "leave you alone." I have to stop being selfish. I have to stop everything, but I can't. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry that I can't control myself. LTPApr 19 2014 8:21am I guess it's better because Mina's older. And more mature. I mean. In three months I'll be fifteen. I'm not even fifteen yet. You're sixteen - well just turned sixteen. And she's sixteen. I guess I was just the immature little kid again. That thought she could have anything in the world and would be happy enough to fly around carefree, but. I care a lot. It's all I care about. And I don't know why I'm so stupid or selfish or immature. I'm just a kid in your eyes I guess? It's better to get rid of me lol. Yeah. I guess I never thought of it that way. I'm just a kid. And in two years you'll be an adult. Three for me. Like one and a half for Mina. You guys are more in range. I'm seriously just. A kid. And I'm stupid. And. Wow. I'm a kid to you. Hah. I'm so stupid to even think that maybe we would have worked out. I'm a baby. A babybabybaby. Immature and stupid. Selfish and. Me. LTPApr 19 2014 8:25am Who would want to freaking date a child. Who would want to date someone selfish. Someone sad. Someone weird. Someone so far away. Someone so. Stupid. Why did you date me in the first place? I wonder if you are a pity dater... I'm sorry you had to endure my immature bullshÃt. I'm sorry you had to endure me. LTPApr 19 2014 8:35am I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm so fücking sorry - you don't even know how much I regret putting you through such a torture that I didn't really know existed until now. I'm so sorry. LTPApr 19 2014 8:37am I keep talking when I know I should stop. LTPApr 19 2014 8:38am I want to text you, but I have to do what's best for you. LTPApr 19 2014 8:38am I don't really know what's best for you. I wouldn't make that judgement based off of my mind because you and I both know I'm not smart like that, but I'm basing it off of what you told me. I'm trying to obedient, aha. You want me to leave you alone and not contact you. This is so hard. LTPApr 19 2014 8:40am I wish you could see how much I love you. LTPApr 19 2014 8:41am I feel like I should say so much more, but I don't know how. I don't want to upset you if you ever remember this poll. Or your "favorite" post. Oh my, I keep making mistakes... LTPApr 19 2014 8:42am You were the last person that needed me... LTPApr 19 2014 8:43am I feel awful for hurting you so many times, but now you can be happyyy. LTPApr 19 2014 8:45am We both wanted the other to be happy. What would make you happy? What would make me happy is if you're happy. LTPApr 19 2014 8:46am "Sorry for spamming and stuff. Ill stop now. Ill stop contacting you and everything, i promise. Have a nice life and i'm real sorry for hurting you a lot. I hope you know i never meant to." LTPApr 19 2014 8:47am White lips... Pale face... Breathing in the snowflakes... Burnt lungs... Sour taste... LTPApr 19 2014 9:34am Add a comment: Vote Results |
